Computer says No.
You shouldn't need to drink in order to forget your emotions and feelings.
You should be able to control your emotions in all aspects and situations so that you don't end up doing things that can ruin you.
I have my bad and depressing times but I deal with them by purely thinking them over and then finding a way of resolution, or finding something to keep my mind off it like having a wank or about making something new like a blog post. Something I can do that will make either me or the world just that tiny little bit better.
In this way, I am taking something bad, and channelling the energy into something good - also called "Sublimation". Some psychologists believe that all success is the result of sublimation - fore example, the perspective of becoming a failure forces the person to ensure they don't become like that, and so they pursue an achievable goal.
Sublimation is a defence mechanism - and a defense mechanism helps the ego (the part of the mind that surfaces into reality) cope with anxiety.
(Read more on Wikipedia here)
And what about trying to enjoy yourself?
(1:26 AM) xxxxxxxxxxxxx =: hehe ill force drink u beer
(1:26 AM) Trebor™ : hahha only on certain conditions lol
(1:26 AM) Trebor™ : but dont force me lol theres no point in drinking it
(1:27 AM) Trebor™ : i dont need to get drunk in order to see people as attractive
(1:27 AM) xxxxxxxxxxxxx =: getting tipsy on drink is fair but smashed there is no point which is stoopid
(1:28 AM) Trebor™ : sometimes i think i act tipsy when im high on sugar lol
(1:28 AM) Trebor™ : i just do stupid little things lol
(1:28 AM) xxxxxxxxxxxxx =: sugar is dumb... it just rots teeth
(1:28 AM) Trebor™ : but i dont run around like hyper lol not like that
(1:29 AM) xxxxxxxxxxxxx =: drink causes pointless random lauffin or random crying which is as good as
(1:29 AM) Trebor™ : i can do that without drinking
(1:29 AM) Trebor™ : i do it all the time lol
(1:29 AM) Trebor™ : ill be on the bus and then cant help myself laughing at something
(1:30 AM) Trebor™ : or theres a joke and i get it and i keep laughing for like 5 whole minutes after the joke
(1:30 AM) xxxxxxxxxxxxx =: riight but that just aint fun tho...
(1:30 AM) Trebor™ : and crying i do a bit of that now and then
(1:30 AM) xxxxxxxxxxxxx =: coz u cant spill anything
(1:30 AM) xxxxxxxxxxxxx =: and lauff about it coz ur outa ur mind
(1:30 AM) xxxxxxxxxxxxx =: like
(1:31 AM) xxxxxxxxxxxxx =: if u get that
(1:31 AM) Trebor™ : spilling things wastes the alcohol lol
(1:31 AM) Trebor™ : waste of money
(1:31 AM) Trebor™ : i wanna be in my mind thats what i like about myself the most
(1:31 AM) Trebor™ : i dont wanna lose my mind
(1:31 AM) xxxxxxxxxxxxx =: buttt if ur a lil out of it, who gives a shit then..
(1:31 AM) Trebor™ : i will submit to losing my body but my mind i never wanna lose that
(1:32 AM) xxxxxxxxxxxxx =: i loose my mind wen i am sober
(1:32 AM) Trebor™ : lol
(1:32 AM) xxxxxxxxxxxxx =: lol
(1:32 AM) Trebor™ : i never want to be out of control
(1:33 AM) Trebor™ : i never want anything going on with my mind that i cant control
(1:33 AM) Trebor™ : good or bad
(1:33 AM) Trebor™ : ive had sum bad expereicens before omggg
(1:34 AM) xxxxxxxxxxxxx =: well my ex never drank then i stoped having my random alchole times...
u wont believe how depressed i got coz i never showed any happiness
till i got tipsey again i recovered my boring depression state
(1:34 AM) Trebor™ : if i ever lose track of my mind i have to shutdown i close my eyes and cover my ears
(1:34 AM) xxxxxxxxxxxxx =: u wont be totally out of control...
(1:35 AM) Trebor™ : i can control my depression
(1:35 AM) xxxxxxxxxxxxx =: coz i know wt im doin but pretend im not coz i dont care bout loosing my dignity
(1:35 AM) Trebor™ : i do care lol cos ive fucked up before
(1:35 AM) Trebor™ : you do know deguassing yeh?
(1:35 AM) xxxxxxxxxxxxx =: well if u dated my ex depression was a natural friend
(1:35 AM) Trebor™ : haha lol
(1:36 AM) xxxxxxxxxxxxx =: deguassing ?
(1:36 AM) Trebor™ : im familiar with darkness but i know i am in control of it
(1:36 AM) Trebor™ : degauss
(1:36 AM) Trebor™ : on CRT monitors
(1:36 AM) xxxxxxxxxxxxx =: oh yea
(1:36 AM) Trebor™ : well sometimes my mind goes like that
(1:36 AM) xxxxxxxxxxxxx =: lol oh dear
(1:37 AM) Trebor™ : everything im looking at its like.. the picture in my eyes... everything shakes side to side and gets smaller
(1:37 AM) Trebor™ : just like someboys pressed deguass in my mind
(1:37 AM) Trebor™ : and it repeats again and again
(1:37 AM) xxxxxxxxxxxxx =: awhh
(1:37 AM) Trebor™ : its fucking wierd and i hate it
(1:37 AM) Trebor™ : i get it when im really really worrying
(1:38 AM) Trebor™ : or im really really ill or something
(1:38 AM) xxxxxxxxxxxxx =: well that sounds like summin drugs would do - after watching it on tv/movies...
(1:39 AM) Trebor™ : and im afraid if i drank i would start to worry about everything more and it would happen
(1:39 AM) Trebor™ : and i would look like a spaz
(1:39 AM) xxxxxxxxxxxxx =: u wount worry
(1:39 AM) xxxxxxxxxxxxx =: dw... wen u got m8s with ya thats the last thing u'd do
(1:40 AM) xxxxxxxxxxxxx =: u'd just get like crazy hyper...
22 September 2008
Summer
Lots to talk about, instead of several blogs, it's one.
Firstly, Windows XP Service Pack 3 has been released... yadda yadda yadda...
So just download it and get that outta the way, otherwise you won't be able to get any more updates. Some people say it actually speeds up your XP, but I'm not so sure.
Confidence.
It gives you a sense of ability and strength.
The definition of a hero is someone who "in the face of danger and adversity or from a position of weakness, display courage and the will for self-sacrifice, that is, heroism, for some greater good, originally of martial courage or excellence but extended to more general moral excellence."
Having confidence will bring you happiness. The lack of it will bring you sadness.
It can manifest as going out, talking to people, shopping, getting down with work, and generally being happy.
Think. If you are not confident at all, you won't make any impulses or take any actions. Confidence is the meaning of standing up for what you feel is right, and so it makes you happy to feel like this – you may stand on your own but the more confidence you have the more friends you will have.
Confidence eradicates doubt and unhappiness. It makes you feel like you can stand around anywhere and not be fearful or other people who may be looking at you and what you're doing.
Friends.
Friends are a source of support, to let you know what might happen should you do something and not know of the consequences. To get friends, you need to be confident. Get rid of the idea that the person might not like you, because the fact is, you can't make everyone happy.
Love.
Love will find you. You have to go out and find your friends, but love will find you. Don't look for it, don't force it to come on, and don't go out places just to find love. It will find you.
And finally... =]
Firstly, Windows XP Service Pack 3 has been released... yadda yadda yadda...
So just download it and get that outta the way, otherwise you won't be able to get any more updates. Some people say it actually speeds up your XP, but I'm not so sure.
Confidence.
It gives you a sense of ability and strength.
The definition of a hero is someone who "in the face of danger and adversity or from a position of weakness, display courage and the will for self-sacrifice, that is, heroism, for some greater good, originally of martial courage or excellence but extended to more general moral excellence."
Having confidence will bring you happiness. The lack of it will bring you sadness.
It can manifest as going out, talking to people, shopping, getting down with work, and generally being happy.
Think. If you are not confident at all, you won't make any impulses or take any actions. Confidence is the meaning of standing up for what you feel is right, and so it makes you happy to feel like this – you may stand on your own but the more confidence you have the more friends you will have.
Confidence eradicates doubt and unhappiness. It makes you feel like you can stand around anywhere and not be fearful or other people who may be looking at you and what you're doing.
Friends.
Friends are a source of support, to let you know what might happen should you do something and not know of the consequences. To get friends, you need to be confident. Get rid of the idea that the person might not like you, because the fact is, you can't make everyone happy.
Love.
Love will find you. You have to go out and find your friends, but love will find you. Don't look for it, don't force it to come on, and don't go out places just to find love. It will find you.
And finally... =]
4 September 2008
Good points and bad points about alcohol
- I can be an open and entertaining person without alcohol. (When I think of the word entertaining, I think of people in football shirts shouting "wahey!" and waving their arms in the air, and doing a crazy dance with it). All I need is a little confidence to be stupid and some good music to get me moving. Alcohol provides a state of mind, apart from just creating a physical change (dehydration of the brain), the actual "way you see the world" when you're drunk can be recreated without alcohol, you just have to let whatever thoughts come into your mind... out. Some people rely on alcohol in order to get to this state of happiness, but I get the idea that being reliant on substances in order to make you "feel" a certain way makes you weak - you should be able to do it with your mind alone. I am a cold thinker I must admit.
- Alcohol dehydrates the brain, which is why you feel light-headed. This can cause actual damage to brain cells, but then "you only live once", don't you?
- If I got drunk, I wouldn't be the happy-happy type. Because I hate alcohol so much (I actually feel like being Straight Edge is the most important part of my identity), I'd be going around smashing alcohol bottles up and probably, because I'm a pretty horny guy and I can somehow relate absolutely everything to sex, I would be doing it with everyone.
- When some people drink too much, they end up doing stupid things, like punching walls, punching people, or driving cars when they are "over the limit". I believe alcohol causes more problems than some people think it solves.
- Some people smoke only when they are drunk - and mixing the two is even more dangerous to the entire body - the lungs and the bloodstream. (Cigarettes contain over 3,000 chemicals, did you know?) And of course, smoking is just completely pointless and futile. It is without any single benefit or advantage to anyone, compared against everything else ever created.
- Too much, and you die. (Mind you, drinking too much water or eating too much can also kill you).
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Short-term_effects_of_alcohol
- Good for the heart and the blood (antioxidants etc. ------> The same antioxidants can be obtained from grapes, blackberries and chocolate :D). Alcohol increases HDL ("good cholesterol"), decreases thrombosis (blood clotting), reduces fibrinogen (a blood clotter), increases fibrinolysis (clot dissolving), reduces artery spasm from stress, increases coronary blood flow and increases insulin sensitivity -- all good for heart health.[20][21] Additionally, Thrombosis is lower among moderate drinkers than teetotalers.
- Less likely to suffer heart attacks (even non-drinkers).
- Reduced risk of coronary heart disease / coronary vascular disease / peripheral arterial disease / intermittent claudication.
- If you have already had a heart attack, drinking will help you survive the next.
- Reduced risk of stroke (only if one drink per week).
- Lower risk of developing gallstones, kidney stones, diabetes, rheumatoid arthritis.
Long term effects for heavy drinkers -
- Inability to make new brain cells.
- Dementia --> Alzhemiers
- Tremors
- Psychological cases such as cravings, hallucinations
- In some studies, weight gain has been shown.
- Some studies suggest more likely chance of cancer developing.
- Poor foetal development.
- Aging such as poor brain development (as above) and skin recovery.
- Alcohol dehydrates the brain, which is why you feel light-headed. This can cause actual damage to brain cells, but then "you only live once", don't you?
- If I got drunk, I wouldn't be the happy-happy type. Because I hate alcohol so much (I actually feel like being Straight Edge is the most important part of my identity), I'd be going around smashing alcohol bottles up and probably, because I'm a pretty horny guy and I can somehow relate absolutely everything to sex, I would be doing it with everyone.
- When some people drink too much, they end up doing stupid things, like punching walls, punching people, or driving cars when they are "over the limit". I believe alcohol causes more problems than some people think it solves.
- Some people smoke only when they are drunk - and mixing the two is even more dangerous to the entire body - the lungs and the bloodstream. (Cigarettes contain over 3,000 chemicals, did you know?) And of course, smoking is just completely pointless and futile. It is without any single benefit or advantage to anyone, compared against everything else ever created.
- Too much, and you die. (Mind you, drinking too much water or eating too much can also kill you).
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Short-term_effects_of_alcohol
- Euphoria (BAC = 0.03 to 0.12%).
- Subject may experience an overall improvement in mood and possible euphoria.
- They may become more self-confident or daring; they may become more friendly or talkative, and/or social.
- Their attention span shortens. They may look flushed.
- Their judgment is not as good—they may express the first thought that comes to mind, rather than an appropriate comment for the given situation. See: in vino veritas
- They have trouble with fine movements, such as writing or signing their name.
- Lethargy (BAC = 0.09 to 0.25%)
- Subject may become sleepy.
- They have trouble understanding or remembering things, even recent events. They do not react to situations as quickly.
- Their body movements are uncoordinated; they begin to lose their balance easily, stumbling; walking is not stable.
- Their vision becomes blurry. They may have trouble sensing things (hearing, tasting, feeling, etc.).
- Confusion (BAC = 0.18 to 0.30%)
- Profound confusion—uncertain where they are or what they are doing. Dizziness and staggering occur.
- Heightened emotional state—aggressive, withdrawn, or overly affectionate. Vision, speech, and awareness are impaired.
- Poor coordination and pain response. Nausea and vomiting sometimes occurs.
- Stupor (BAC = 0.25 to 0.40%)
- Movement severely impaired; lapses in and out of consciousness.
- Subjects can slip into a coma; will become completely unaware of surroundings, time passage, and actions.
- Risk of death is very high due to alcohol poisoning and/or pulmonary aspiration of vomit while unconscious.
- Loss of bodily functions can begin, including bladder control, breathing, heart rate.
- Coma (BAC = 0.35 to 0.50%)
- Unconsciousness sets in.
- Reflexes are depressed (i.e., pupils do not respond appropriately to changes in light).
- Breathing is slower and more shallow. Heart rate drops. Death usually occurs at levels in this range.
- Death (BAC more than 0.50%)
- Can cause central nervous system to fail, resulting in death.
- Good for the heart and the blood (antioxidants etc. ------> The same antioxidants can be obtained from grapes, blackberries and chocolate :D). Alcohol increases HDL ("good cholesterol"), decreases thrombosis (blood clotting), reduces fibrinogen (a blood clotter), increases fibrinolysis (clot dissolving), reduces artery spasm from stress, increases coronary blood flow and increases insulin sensitivity -- all good for heart health.[20][21] Additionally, Thrombosis is lower among moderate drinkers than teetotalers.
- Less likely to suffer heart attacks (even non-drinkers).
- Reduced risk of coronary heart disease / coronary vascular disease / peripheral arterial disease / intermittent claudication.
- If you have already had a heart attack, drinking will help you survive the next.
- Reduced risk of stroke (only if one drink per week).
- Lower risk of developing gallstones, kidney stones, diabetes, rheumatoid arthritis.
Long term effects for heavy drinkers -
- Inability to make new brain cells.
- Dementia --> Alzhemiers
- Tremors
- Psychological cases such as cravings, hallucinations
- In some studies, weight gain has been shown.
- Some studies suggest more likely chance of cancer developing.
- Poor foetal development.
- Aging such as poor brain development (as above) and skin recovery.
1 September 2008
What are the symptoms of a computer virus?
Because I know so many people that have viruses/spyware/malware/badware/phishing scams/smitfraud/trojans/worms/zombie infected computers,
I've decided to make a list of things that viruses might to do your computer.
One simple point: viruses might be very good at getting into your computer, but they aren't very good at hiding themselves.
The best software I know is ZoneAlarm Internet Security Suite.
Other software I've tried that just wasn't as good as this includes:
- Symantec Norton
- AVG/Grisoft
- Kaspersky
- BitDefender
- F-Secure
- Comodo
- Microsoft Windows OneCare
- PC Tools
Here are some telltale signs of viruses:
- The sounds your computer makes when you turn it on are either wrong or staggered
- Your desktop wallpaper changes without notice
- When on Internet Explorer, and trying to visit pages, it takes you to the wrong ones
- There are new toolbars and menus on Internet Explorer that you never had before
- Windows Live Messenger/MSN sends people messages with URLs (website addresses) in that you never wrote down
- Lots of emails are sent through Outlook Express or other emails that you never sent yourself
- Programs and popups come up on your computer (called something like Antivirus XP 2008) saying that your computer is infected and that you need to buy the software in order to remove it.
- Your computer restarts without doing anything at all
- Lots of icons appear on your desktop and don't know what they are for or why they are there.
- Your computer is a lot slower to startup, turn off or even do anything
- You see black screens in boxes that come up on the screen that may have white text in them or not
- You try to open anything on your computer and it doesnt work
Here are some websites where you can scan your computer for free.
- http://www.personalfirewall.comodo.com/scan/avscanner.html
- http://support.f-secure.com/enu/home/onlineservices/fshc/front.html
- http://www.iolo.com/threatcenter/virusscanstart.aspx
- http://us.mcafee.com/root/mfs/default.asp?affid=105
- http://onecare.live.com/site/en-GB/default.htm
And for your firewall:
- https://www.grc.com/x/ne.dll?bh0bkyd2
- http://www.pcflank.com/scanner1s.htm
I've decided to make a list of things that viruses might to do your computer.
One simple point: viruses might be very good at getting into your computer, but they aren't very good at hiding themselves.
The best software I know is ZoneAlarm Internet Security Suite.
Other software I've tried that just wasn't as good as this includes:
- Symantec Norton
- AVG/Grisoft
- Kaspersky
- BitDefender
- F-Secure
- Comodo
- Microsoft Windows OneCare
- PC Tools
Here are some telltale signs of viruses:
- The sounds your computer makes when you turn it on are either wrong or staggered
- Your desktop wallpaper changes without notice
- When on Internet Explorer, and trying to visit pages, it takes you to the wrong ones
- There are new toolbars and menus on Internet Explorer that you never had before
- Windows Live Messenger/MSN sends people messages with URLs (website addresses) in that you never wrote down
- Lots of emails are sent through Outlook Express or other emails that you never sent yourself
- Programs and popups come up on your computer (called something like Antivirus XP 2008) saying that your computer is infected and that you need to buy the software in order to remove it.
- Your computer restarts without doing anything at all
- Lots of icons appear on your desktop and don't know what they are for or why they are there.
- Your computer is a lot slower to startup, turn off or even do anything
- You see black screens in boxes that come up on the screen that may have white text in them or not
- You try to open anything on your computer and it doesnt work
Here are some websites where you can scan your computer for free.
- http://www.personalfirewall.comodo.com/scan/avscanner.html
- http://support.f-secure.com/enu/home/onlineservices/fshc/front.html
- http://www.iolo.com/threatcenter/virusscanstart.aspx
- http://us.mcafee.com/root/mfs/default.asp?affid=105
- http://onecare.live.com/site/en-GB/default.htm
And for your firewall:
- https://www.grc.com/x/ne.dll?bh0bkyd2
- http://www.pcflank.com/scanner1s.htm
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